This is probably the hardest blog entry I'll ever write. All too often I've started off an entry with, "I have sad news to report," and now I'm writing from a deeply personal perspective.
Yesterday morning, my best friend and husband of 37 years, died in his favorite chair in our living room. I rushed to his side, but was unable to do anything for him except hold his hand and watch as he took his last breath. The horrible cancer he had fought for the past nearly four years had finally won.
Many of you knew Fred from his dedication to Joe's Pond Association - mainly in designing and maintaining the web site. After he retired from Social Security Administration, he began learning web design and that became his focus, his avocation. He loved being involved with the Association and doing the website and we often took on those challenges together. We respected and supported each other, no matter what project was at hand.
It is important to me that his friends at Joe's Pond know how much the friendships he made here meant to him. We both missed the meetings this past summer, but we had high hopes that next year would be better, even as his energy waned and normal activities became so much harder for him. We hoped for some miracle, but we both knew that our time together was limited. It was just unexpected that the end came so soon.
Now, I'm struggling to figure out what my life going forward will be like. I know it will be lonely in a way my friends and family, try as they may, cannot fix. But right now I need time to confront my fears and sadness in order to heal.
My message tonight is, please give your partner in life an extra hug and tell him/her how fortunate you are to be sharing life together; and love each other like crazy!